Tuesday, August 03, 2004

We always heard the slogan about friendship. 'friends forever', 'friendship never die' and many more but do we really understand and nurture the word 'friend'. It's hard to find someone who really care for us and understand how we feel. We can have more than hundred or even thousands but is there the right person for us?

During my years in UiTM, I have a friend. She is special to me. She's cool, friendly, matured, independent etc. We are so much like heaven n hell. I was so childish, kuat merajuk. But we're still best friends until I blew it away. Just because of one tiny little thing, we had a cat fight and that's the end of our friendship. Stupid! I was so stupid and till now I regret for the things I've done. Just imagine, because of biskut kapal terbang. It happened in less than 5 minutes but it destroyed the friendship for several years. If I can turn back time, I will choose the day I lost her. I want to clear things up.

Every time, I heard some bad things happened to her, only Allah knows how I feel. I want to be so near to her. I want to hug her and tell her everything gonna be okey. but it was too late. She keeps running away from me. I can't sleep at night, thinking of her. Feel sad, pity.. can't describe how I feel. I just hope she could give me one more chance.

After few years, we met again. I was surprised when I saw her. She was so thin. A lil' bit uncomfortable but we tried to be ourselves again. For the first time after the fight, we talked about what really happened. Face-to-face and talked like adult. I thought I'm the only one who misses her so much. I was wrong coz suddenly she cried. I hold her hand. Tight. I don't want to see her crying, I tried to be strong but I failed. I cried with her. We can be the best friends forever but we were so childish. We can't think right and now we regret it for the rest of our lives. We missed each other so much and I guess the word itself isn't enough. We missed the song we used to sing, playing the dj, pistol air, chatting, gossips.. all of it. When we realize how stupid we are, the days have just passed us by. Leaving us behind. Now, we lived so far and we had our own life. It will never be the same. Never!

I learnt a lot from the experience. It teaches me to appreciate with what I have coz I will never know when I will loose it. To that friend, thank you and I want u to know, no matter what happened between both of us I will always remember u as a very good friend of mine. if u need me, just give me a call. Day or night, I always have time to lend my ear on u coz I still care for u.